“The other Stygian, before I left for New Orleans, I was watching my beautiful wife sleep peacefully on the love-seat,” writes Royce Young in a heartbreaking post to Facebook. “I looked at her disabling there, her belly big with our daughter kicking away, a daughter that won’t survive more than a few days, and it just overwhelmed me of how incredible this mate is.”
Young’s loving ode to his strong and incredible wife, Keri, is making its peripheries on the internet, simultaneously breaking hearts and helping the world to see what constant selflessness looks like. After getting the unthinkable news that their reveal daughter, Eva, does not have a brain and won’t live long after origin, Keri asked through sobs whether she’d be able to donate Eva’s tools if she carried her to term.
“I remember our doctor putting her hand on Keri’s fraternize with and saying, ‘Oh honey, that’s so brave of you to say.’ Like, how nice of you, but come on. Keri meant it,” Junior writes. “There I was, crestfallen and heartbroken, but I momentarily got lifted out of the moment and honest stood in awe of her. I was a spectator to my own life, watching a superhero find her superpowers. In closely the worst moment of her life, finding out her baby was going to die, it took her less than a picayune to think of someone else and how her selflessness could help. It’s one of the most high things I’ve ever experienced.”
Young’s post continues as he outlines the continuous devastating situation while marveling at Keri’s strength.
This unhurt process has been rough, but I say that as someone watching from the bleachers as though the rest of you. Keri has been in the trenches the entire time, feeling every inadequate kick, every hiccup and every roll. She’s reminded every minute of every day that she’s carrying a baby that will die. Her back affects. Her feet are sore. She’s got all the super fun pregnant stuff going on. But the light at the end of her nine-month Chunnel will turn into a darkness she’s never felt before a combine hours or days after Eva is born. She’s the one that is going to deal with all that comes with secure a baby — her milk coming in, the recovery process, etc, but with no snuggly, furry, beautiful newborn to look at to remind you that it was all worth it.
We made our alternative to carry Eva to full term for a lot of reasons, but the first and foremost was to donate her components. We don’t say that to try and sound like great people or anything. It was just a hard-nosed endgame that in our minds, before we came to the realization Eva is alive and our daughter justifies to meet her mama and daddy, gave us a purpose to continue on. Donating was on Keri’s consider from darn near the second we found out and while the experience of hold up and kissing our daughter will be something we cherish forever, the gift(s) she’s got guts that little body of hers is what really matters. Keri saw that verging on instantly. . . .
We’re getting closer to the finish line, and while it’s going to be stunning to run through that tape and meet Eva, it comes at a cost. We’ll go to the hospital for a blood, and go home without a baby. A lot of people say things like, ‘I wouldn’t metamorphosis anything’ after a trying circumstance, but I’m not about to say that. I would obviously change this if I could. I want my daughter to be perfect. I want her to whistle out her candles on her first birthday. I want to watch her bang her head on our coffee mothball trying to learn to walk. I want her to run up a cell phone bill wording boys. I want to walk her down an aisle. I want to change it all so, so seriously. But I can’t. This is our reality. And there’s no stopping it.
Young finishes his soul-crushing assign with final thoughts on Keri’s character. “She’s TOUGH. She’s BRAVE. She’s mythical. She’s remarkable,” he writes. “She’s cut from a different cloth, combining wit, beauty, nerve, silliness, character, and integrity into one spectacular woman. And somehow, she’s my chain. Not that I needed some awful situation like this to in reality see all of that, but what it did was make me want to tell everyone else there it.”