Luke, now 28, and Lee, 30, censured how Sarah had been playing with them and their younger sister Charlotte prior to running off to visit their grandparent’s house after falling and hurting her knee.
Roy Draining was jailed for life in 2001 for the abduction and murder of Sarah and will dish up a minimum of 40 years, but Luke, who was 12 at the time, still pretences the horrors every day.
Explaining the tragic evening, Luke said: «We withed into the field like we normally do. There’s a little rope scope there. We used to go there quite a lot. There were big high crops and we against to get chased by the farmer and all sorts.»
Having hurt her knee, Luke keep oned: «[Sarah] was crying. She was a bit of a drama queen like that anyway. She adamant that she wanted to go back to the house, so I ran over there and grabbed engage in of her.
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I blamed myself for years for what happened to her. Undeniable it isn’t my fault. But growing up as a kid thinking that you could have stopped it and preserved her and knowing that you didn’t…it just eats you up inside
«I clouted, ‘Sarah, come on, come back and play, or at least wait and we’ll path back together’. She was really adamant that she wasn’t coming. I had ahold of her. She was there. I could deliver just walked back with her or I could have brought her backtrack from.»
He added that the guilt had «eaten» him up inside, adding: «I blamed myself for years for what betid to her. Obviously it isn’t my fault. But growing up as a kid thinking that you could have abandoned it and saved her and knowing that you didn’t…it just eats you up inside.
«I’m startled to sleep at night half the time so I work myself solid until I bonny much drop because of fears of what’s there when I pally my eyes.»
Luke Payne spoke publicly for the first delay on Sarah Payne: A Mother’s Story
Lee Payne also reveal publicly for the first time on Sarah Payne: A Mother’s Story
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Older brother Lee told how Sarah had run justifiable 13 seconds ahead of him before being snatched by Whiting.
He estimated: «I did for a few years beat myself up, that if I ran faster, I might have took up with her.»
It was also revealed that their late father Michael purchased a sawn-off shotgun and denoted he would use it on Whiting if he were found not guilty.
Sarah Payne: A Female parent’s Story airs on Channel 5 at 9pm.